aiyox.sux la today.31july.maths paper 2!!
seriously lorx..2h30mins sit at hall
the paper so difficult..also dunno how to do
anyhow hack de la..my p1 also no hope
p2 slightly better bt stil no hope de la..
nvr think so much also la..
i m very stressed this few days le la..
PRELIM sux la!!big time
i hate having exams , i rather stay at home slp
i also dun wan to study le la..
go outside chiong le better
die le also better
alot of things hiding inside my heart
i dun know how to say out..somehow
i feel lyk speaking my hearts out
but forget it la..
all i can say is the life i m leading
isnt the life i wanted
stress,headache,no freedom
everything also lyk against mi
dunno le la..
i reali dun hav mood for anything sia
PRELIM is giving mi too much stress la
i now also know wad kind of result
i wil be having le..
then take back result hav to kena scolded again
sux la..
i reali dun feel lyk living le la..
somehow i know why ppl choose nt to live
coz of stress,ppl arnd..
aiyaa..fcuk la.
dun wan say so much le..

hmmmm , today last day of my anti-biotic
for my eye de
hmmm , finally , tts why today whole day
slping sia..
haix..the medicine reali sux la..
make mi so tired and slpy
somemore it makes mi sianz sianz de
worst
thats why i dun feel gd this few days
aiyox..whole day at home
bee ask mi go out..i tired
haix..
dunno le la..this few days reali pig
slp alot sia..
wan go out also no time le..
after this week jiu no more le..
i wan faster fri!!
i wan go enjoy
forget everything!!
i reali hate de way i m living
haix..
blame no one bt myself bahz..
i also dun wan hurt her anymore
bt i stil love her sia..
i hate myselff!

tmr 750-905 chem p3
another no hope paper
1hr15mins is a waste of my time
sitting at hall
thats nt de main thing
after 905 is a break for us
905-1000..
then 1000-1230 is dnt paper
haix..
tmr gt 2 paper..i reali wil high la..
confirm siao de lorx..
i confirm cant concentrade de lorx..
dnt paper , long lehh
2h30mins like today
sit til butt pain and numb ar
tmr a long day for mi
705-1230
haix..isnt it lyk sch day?
argh!!
can i dun go for PRELIM
can i dun study
can i leave this world?
can i hav peaceful mind
can i always be happy
can i enjoy myself
can i?!

all those things , the answer is obvious
NO..
haix..
simply life sux
if i were to have a chance to live or die
i rather i die inside my mum's womb
so i dun hav to go through so many obstacles
and be someone whom no one likes

sometimes i wonder
shud i blame God or love God
that He brings mi into this world
full of sufferings
full of hate
full of pain
full of EVERYTHING
gd or bad also havv

IF I HAVE A CHOICE,I WOULDN'T HURT ANYONE IN THIS WORLD
especially u..
u know who u are..

Yblackloves;
8:39 PM

hmmm , finally done with my blog..phew..took me the whole day to do it and i am stil on medication.yet i stil face the comp whole day.nt really whole day la.i shall start my first posting on today.hmmm , today morning 905 finish sch le..the phy paper is so difficult lorx..i can say is dunno how to do any of the qns.well~my prelims are a sure fail de la.some things are bothering me too much.and i seriously cant concentrade well on my studies.not hiding anything , during a period of time i gt think of nt studying anymore.my most important thing in life is no longer wid me.why shud i study so hard for?i dun hav a future , i dun know how long will i live looking at my health conditions.i reali dun plan far.i dun mind dying as long as my "something important" is happy and i can leave peacefully.some things reali let go den can achieve happiness.i dun wan tok so much abt studies.it juz make mi bored and pissed.well , after tt , bee and demi went over to my hse at arnd 1 plus near 2..actually suppose to go NUH and see jo en de..HOSPITALISED!hmmm..take care jo en(zi bi zhen gal)..hmmm , they all at my hse..bee playing dota and demi keep on li siao mi when i wan slp..bt nvm la..at least she can entertain mi..gdgd..hmmm , play til 5 plus demi go off le..bee arnd 7 liddat den go off..hmmm , say abt demi horr..stupid lehh , she is de most 'stupidest' gal lorx..reali cant say how stupid she is lorx..stupid stupid stupid sotong..
reali very stupid la..cant tahan her..
dun be stupid anymore!!
i see her liddat , dunno my heart break into how many millions of pieces
reali heartache sia..
its torturing mee..
i gt nth else to say abt her le la..
only know my heart hav someone..which is far away frm sky,right in front of me..

Yblackloves;
10:52 PM

today suddenly very boring lehh..then think of making blog lorx..then now come make a blog..my old de blog forget all the passwords and id le..so make new de..very sianz mahz..aiyox..i now stil doing my blog sia..do til very du lan le..hahaz..cant find nice de skins for my blog.reali long time nvr come do blog le hor..everything forget le..thats why do things so slow..aiya..next time then post la..pek chek..hahahz..

Yblackloves;
12:55 PM