Its been long since i blogged
coz of d&t work la.. no mood to blog la..
well , i was caught by HSA few days ago
I am in deep shit?

Monday Blues!!!!!
20 August 2007 , pass up d&t
good news is that i had spent 4 hrs doing d&t yesterday night
til 130 then went to bed
wake up morning 7am , my head is so heavy
but still dragged my feet to sch
School is so boring , lucky i had done my work for d&t
and so i dun hav to worry abt a single thing for it
i could relax and wait for the day to end
monday is always the most boring day
nth much to tok
i keep on wanna slp in class
bt no chance
lucky time flies real fast
gdgd
hmmm , finish sch at 215
then stayed back for d&t
went to canteen buy things up to studio to eat
then saw joey
talked to her abt some serious matter
hmmm , someone behind my back
talked bad abt my dear arr..
i relax so long le..ppl no longer respect me this orange le..
i guess i hav to do sth to make my name big again
because i hav dear by my side now , lots of things i had to think twice
before i could do it..with dear's permission
yes , i listen to my dear alot de
hmmm , bt sorry dear , somethings i reali cant bear it anymore
espcially that SOMEONE who is a childish freak
who take me as dead person
i reali can take it any further le
he take me as a sick cat , coz i didnt do anything to him
Hong and bully you , both he did it
but i could sit down and see , "REN"
one patience has its limit , i will burst out into anger
dear , u are around , everything i do , nid to think twice first
i dun mind abt anything happening to me , bt most importantly
u muz be fine
thats wad i m worrying abt , i m reali in a dilemma
i really dunno wad to do..
even joey is angry , i as your boyfriend
could i stand here do nth
i reali dun hav any patience le..
dear , if anything , i apologize first..
i dunno wad will happen to me
but i dun care le..
i wont let him carry on doing things tt he lyk le..
i will make sure my respect is earned back
269 orange..
i am being forced into it , dear , dun blame me..
sorry~

After d&t work , i took cab , went to dear's hse there
pick bee and dear up and head to my hse
they both stayed at my hse
and dear was being bullied by me
l0ls , dear , u know i am naughty
so , dun blame me k?
i love fooling around de mahz dear
especially wif you
=)
hmmmm , till 7 liddat
daddy fetch bee and dear home`

I FELT THAT I COULD NO LONGER CONTROL MYSELF
ANGER IS GONNA OVERTAKE ME SOON
I AM GONNA BURST OUT ANY MOMENT
I COULDNT HOLD ON TO MY ANGER FOR LONG
THIS IS THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME SO ANGRY
I PROMISED MYSELF I COULDNT LET DEAR SUFFER ANYTHING BAD
NOW , I FELT SO BAD
THAT SOMEONE IS ASKING FOR IT
BUT DEAR WUN ALLOW ME TO DO ANYTHING
I REALI DUNNO WAD TO DO
SOMEONE HELP ME!!!
I AM STUCK~

I promised dear to do the quiz , here goes:

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1) Eternal Love With Demi Lim Li Fen..=)
2) Peace Among Friends
3) Work and earn lots of money for dear~
4) O Level pass with flying colours
5) Laptop!

Answer the following questions :

1. The person who tag you is?
Demi Lim Li Fen Dear!~
2. Your relationship with him/her is?
She is my dear~~
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
Stupid , cute , pretty , lovable and smart..l0ls
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
L0ls , dunno~everything?
5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
"I Love Da`Ben`Dan`
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
She is my dear le la..-_-
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
She is perfect in her own ways , no need for improvement
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Jump Floor and die~
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Don't know , it wont happen =)
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Love her forever~
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Pretty plus a bit of stupidness~ =D
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
I Dont care abt how ppl judge me , i judge myself-
13. The character you love of yourself are?
Remaining cool~
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
dont know , i am nt born perfect and i dunno where are my weakness
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
The myself i am now

16. Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1. TimothyTan
2. TanJunHua
3. ChuaMingXiu
4. JonathanGwee
5. ErvinSeah
6. LimPeiSiang
7. PatrickTang
8. JustinTan
9. JonathanOng
10. AngWeiZhen

17. Who is no.6having relationship with?
l0ls,dun hav anyone la
18.Is no.9 a male or female?
fatty ar , male of course
19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Dont know and i dun care~
20.How about no.8 and 5 ?
both are guys
21.What is no.2 studying about?
o levels of course
22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ?
yesterday
23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
english pop?
24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
yes , a older bro and sis
25.Will you woo no.3?
i am attached , somemore its a guy , i m nt a gay
26.Is no.4 single ?
yes , with someone in mind i guess..hmmm
27.What's the surname of no.5 ?
Seah lor..
28.What's the hobby of no.4 ?
DotA siao!!
29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
yupps , for sure
30.Where is no.2 studying at?
Same school as me
31.Talk something casually about no.1 ?
he is a joker , my gd bro~
32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8 ?
he is a guy , i only hav one gal in my heart~
33.Where does no.9 live at?
Bukit Panjang
34.What color does no.4 like?
black and white?hahahz , i dunno la.~
35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
nope , they are nt very close
36.Does no.7 likes no.2 ?
i dunno , i dun care
38.Does no.1 have any pets?
hahaz , a pet rabbit , his girlfriend , pokpok
39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
i always call him fat de , hahhaz , how to be sexy?


The End Of The Quiz :DD

Yblackloves;
10:04 PM

Hmmm , long time no blog

Yblackloves;
10:06 PM

HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY,SINGAPORE~
`POWER RANGER WISH SINGAPORE HAPPY NATIONAL DAY~
l0ls..

Morning waked up by dear's msg at dunno wad time~
then nvm , go back slp again
slp til she wake me up again
dear also funny ar
l0ls.
so tired sia..dunno why
nt enuf slp , i this pic nid alot of sleep de
nvm , can go out wif dear can le`

Going west mall meet dear they all
at around 12 plus
daddy fetch me there , rushing le
went to cinema , want watch "Secret" the movie
then wait for jessical&charmaine they all come west mall frm cck
then go in watch the show
must understand the story line
then can understand how touching is the movie
overall i could say its good~
dear inside movie keep on laughingg`~
sot de nehh~
hahahhahz~

After the movie , arnd 2 plus
bee ask us go csc
then we all walk to csc lorxx..
hahahz , on the way
we all take out flags and bee spoilt flag
l0ls..mi kimweng and bee confirm are crazy manz
then we faster run to csc
l0ls..
kimweng they all played pool
then after that i go play initial-d
initial-d madness muz be stopped so that i could save more money
i rather spend de money on dear than on a stupid machine
hahahahz , dear wil say : "u confirm siao"
=D

After everything , went to west mall again
l0ls..
jessical,kimweng and charmaine went home
then left wif me , dear and liangliang
we all went to E-ZONE arcade
coz i still got 2 tokens left the other time
then this time i went to spend it
after playing , went to send dear home..
then took a cab back home..

Dear went out to buy food
then liang liang and me went to go find her
ride bike to west mall mac
was speeding till when we reached mac
we were full of sweat
hahahz..doesnt matter
can pei dear , nth else matter
lucky dear can come out , i can see her
coz i miss her arrrr~
l0lss..
dear went kopitiam to eat
then after that liangliang ride dear back to her hse playground
dear was so scared arr..l0ls..
no worries , anything happen
liang liang confirm die
hahahhahaz
too bad my bike cant ride ppl , coz dangerous
then ask liang liang ride
bo bian~sadd
wanted a nice bike
IMPOSSIBLE i guess
wanna buy also have to use my own money
hmmm , then slack at dear's hse nearby
slack awhile den dear went home le..
then ride home lorx..
liangliang speeding
then i almost kena bang by car arr
lucky i smart brake abit first
he saw car coming also nvr warn de
or else i wun be here blogging le..
laying at hospital le arr~
hahahz
then we at liangliang hse area , coz mi and him go different way le..
we sing AST poem
hahahhaz , sing til we go off
hahahz..
thats all for de day le lorx..
reach home , watch tv liddat nia~

Oh ya , 14Aug , i hope he can go through it peacefully
nth will happen to him~
YOU WILL BE FINE~

HAPPY 01 MONTH DEARRR~
I LOVE YOU

Yblackloves;
11:58 PM

Today waked up at 7am as usual , go school
daddy brought me to school..
reached school at 7.30am
hmmmm , didnt saw dear mahz
then thought she didnt come sch
haha
then nvm lehh
today national day performance
see they carry the singapore flag
reminds me of last year national day
i am also involved in it.

After finishing the parade at the parade square
we went up to hall for a concert
well , its nice
everyone was in red
AST!!
hahahz..
no la..national day
sang all those song , some are nice
some juz sux
singapura song!!
i love it..
and one more , hanif's performance!!!
his performance is juz so nice
GO GO POWER RANGER!!
nice remix he got man!
then till the end , MR adam was invited
to go to the stage and sing along wif students
dear said he was so cute
l0ls..shud i say act cute?!
nahz , i dun be so bad..
mr adam is reali a joker ar

Finish sch at 10
then wait for dear at canteen
dear tok tok to her daughters
then went off to 289 resident corner
find jialiang , dear's another son
hahahahz..
walking at front gate , saw d&t teacher
quickly run off to find jialiang they all at resident corner
coz i ran away from d&t remedials alot of times
and when mryong wan see mi , i confirm nt there de
=)
how gd m i dear?
hahahz..

After staying at resident corner till arnd 12 plus
dear wanted to go home bathe and change then come out
then together mercedes cab back to 203
then me and jialiang wait at 21 floor for dear
l0ls..21 , we at there blast gang poem
hahahaz..confirm paikia sia..
BHB//
hahahz..
wait til dear they all come down le , daddy come fetch mi jialiang and dear
back to my hse
my turn to bathe and change le..
hahahaz..relax relax
til 3 liddat
cab go entertainment watch movie
881
buay buay you ar you ar you
hahahahz..881
its a very stupid show
but its interesting
and i am stuck in my POWER RANGER world
today i am mad , dear also say
GO GO,POWER RANGER!!
lame shit right?
i know i am lame , but at least POWER RANGER
makes mi felt i am once again young
hahaz..

Finish show le..took mrt back home
same as normal , send dear home first
then go home myself
a habit le..
hahahaz..dear pei me awhile at the playground downstairs her hse
sit there joke and li siao each other till she is suppose to be home..
dear nt everytime can pei mi late late de
muz grab every single seconds..
or else after that i am gonna miss her again
hahahahz..

TO DEAR:I LOVE YOU TOO..<3 TAKE GD CARE OF UR HEALTH
COUGHING FOR SO MANY MONTHS
VERY WORRIED ABOUT U..
DRINK MORE WATER K?
I MISS YOU LA DEAR~~~
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAZ~

TO AMANDACHING: XIAOKEAI`UR MUMMY AND UR PIG
BOTH ASK ME TO CHEER U UP
PLS CHEER UP BAHZ
I SPENT SO MUCH TIME COUNSELLING U
TAKE MY WORDS TO HEART
TAKE CARE BA
WISH U ALL THE BEST =)

Yblackloves;
10:59 PM

Very sianz sia today.Took back 3 test paper , maths , social studies and physic..let mi tell everyone PROUDLY about my marks..wanna know?!~*WAIT LONG LONG*
l0ls , no la..joking la..
start with maths:
paper 2 : 30.5/80

social studies:
whole paper : 17/50

physic
paper 1 MCQ : 16/40
paper 2&5 : 27/80

haix.See my results , really no hope for my studies , i really dun know wad else to say to myself
upon seeing my results , i felt really bad.
i cant see my future ahead
i can only see a dead end
is it too late to study now??
everyone said its nvr too late to repent , i felt that its too late
i somemore dont hav the heart to study anymore
all my heart is concentrated on someone
someone very important and dear to me
`that person is no other than my girlfriend
hahax
after posting this blog , dear will confirm come here tag my blog say i stupid
i admit i am stupid
but my stupidness is because i love you~

Because i love you that makes me a stupid guy
but it isnt the worst thing
but the opposite
its a good thing
a stupid guy that can get your love..
i am more than happy and willingly to be your stupid guy..

050807 will be the day
i will never forget in my life
i promised`

Stupid sotong , you said you love me
and i dont believe izzit?
haha , dun foolish la..
i wun doubt your love for me
just wanted to make sure there is no one else in ur heart
if i gif u any wrong idea , i m sorry k?
i dont meant anything~

Anyway,one last thingg~~

THANKS FOR DRAWING MY NAME AND EVERYTHING ON IT..
I SERIOUSLY VERY HAPPY LE..
THANKS DEAR~
MOST IMPORTANTLY,I LOVE YOU~
take care..
I HATE~~~~~~~~~

Yblackloves;
10:36 PM

Haixxx..boredd..today afternoon 2 plus wake up le..haix..today very boring la..nvr go out , whole day at home sleep and play computer nia..liddat wait wait wait for time to fly lorx..actually wan go out play pool with timothy at night de , bt then i fell asleep so forget it le lorx..always liddat de la..lay on bed awhile then confirm fall asleep , pig jiu shi pig la..wad to do..haixx..today jiu shi liddat so sianz sia..

WHY IZZIT LIKE EVERYONE BESIDE ME ARE BACKSTABBERS?
I JUST WANT TO SETTLE DOWN AND RELAX MY LIFE LE..
THAT SEEMS TO BE IMPOSSIBLE
I AM LIVING IN A COMPLICATED WORLD..

i juz wan to love you with the whole of my heart
with no one disturbing&INTERFERING
pls , dun do this to me..
no one can overtake her in my heart~

Yblackloves;
10:33 PM

Ytd night went out at 10pm , timothy is waiting for me downstairs my hse.i took my time go down lorx..boring sia..no mood sia ytd..thats why went out so late.always liddat de la..lucky timothy can accompany me sia..or else i dunno whre to go le.haix.dunno la..then together we walk to pok's block there the bus stop take 985 go timah play pool lorx..we went to CENTURY to play , which requires a 16 yr old person to book the table , then tim 16 le he book lorx.Then we started the pool with 9 balls.I no mood concentrade on the game sia.then anyhow aim anyhow shoot lorx..end up stil i win , anyhow de la..then play pool , i very sianz sia..then hit the ball very hard ar..then the ball keep on anyhow fly.pek chek sia..play play play til me and him dun wan play le , then we pay le den go off..$4 only , cheap sia..*how nice it is to be 16* mine is stil long long way behind la..after O's..LONG SIAAA!!! kekex..hmmm , after pool , we went to play LAN la..dota lorx..sianz sia..i m a noob , haix..play battle.net always ppl kp de..du lan la..haix..then play finish LAN then go eat then separate cab go home slp le..

Till today afternoon arnd 2 plus then wake up sia..haixyo , i am a pig , a pig who only laze around and do nothing , love to enjoy only..wake up le ppl call mi out go play pool again , later i going play pool at timah til arnd 7 plus near 8 bahz..wanna send demi home , she is in sch , having the lame innovative thingy..then mayb go tim's hse..we sec 4 are advised to go , but do i look as if i cared?hmmm , alright la..i hav to blog faster coz i m going out le..my fren are all waiting for me at timah le..i wanna go play pool , hmmmm..today is only liddat only la..updates on tmr~

she read my blog again , hmmm , i m feeling very miserable
coz i apologize first in case i made up my mind
then do things that may hurt u
haix..i reali very stress and confused la..
i dunno wad else shud i do le..
maybe in the first place , i shudnt belong to her world
i can only live inside my own world , alone
leading lonely life , and thats the end
coz her world is much more simple , unlike mine , COMPLICATED!
i am reali afraid to hurt her once more
and that wil cause mi heartaches
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WAD SHUD I DO NOW?!!
I REALI FEEL VERY MISERABLE NOW!
GUESS NO ONE BOTHERS
haixx..
life is liddat , wad goes around , comes around
i had done too much bad things in the past
now its coming back to me
maybe my frenz are all right about me
I HATE MYSELF

I AM THINKING WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW
TO LEAVE OR TO CONTINUE?
guess i should juz leave liddat
its a heartless decision
i am stil thinking
if i were to do it , i could only say
SORRY,I LOVE YOU..

Yblackloves;
3:06 PM

Since i ytd nvr blog..i shall start blogging frm ytd bahz..ytd slp til arnd 1pm..coz my exam is at 2 til 3pm..gd ar?dun hav to go sch so early..prelim exam last paper , chem/phy paper 1 , 40 MCQ qns..hahahhaz..l0ls..after paper , then went home la..den go home bathe then change le quickly rush out to go find demi and bee at 205..sit down there tok tok tok , den bee ask us go west mall walk..hmmm , sianz sia..nth to do de west mall..walk lai walk qu dou shi de same place..hmmmm , den walk til demi wan go home le..i send her home lorx..left wif bee and mi..we two also very sianz.den call ppl , den i go mit pei siang , ming xiu and jon go panjang accompany pei siang go cut his hair..his hair cut le and nvr cut also no difference..such a waste of money.den cut finish hair le.go junhua hse there find him den go back batok find shenghui take chiong de cig frm him lorx..l0ls..take le pei siang go his another fren hse then we go eric's hse ton lorx..take 188 go..reach his hse , first thing is to smoke!we hav 52 sticks of cigg..nice arr?hahahaz..den all play comp , some watch movie then me and eric very sianz..go make dominoes , hahahz..bt i make make horr.my hand shaking..make til du lan nvr success then dun wan do le..we all 11plus go down play soccer and basketball , play til we all wan die le lorxx..so tired and body full of sweat..come back i change to eric's shirt and pants..whole night nvr slp lorx..play fighting , see who fall first..all aim me..du lan la..den they all go down buy things come up eat..eat til so full sia..i very bored lehh , den eric gt things teach mi to do..make a owl for demi..bt it doesnt look lyk owl , it took mi whole night juz to do a small owl..bt nvm , as long demi liked it..i dun mind nvr slp the whole night..

Tok abt today le..til morning 5 plus i almost completed the owl..they all ask mi go sentosa..bt i very tired le..then demi waked up le..she msg mi..i wan send her to sch , then she initially dun wan de lorx..til i say say then okay de..i 630 liddat reach her hse below..joey nvr go mit her go sch , lucky gt mi accompany her to sch ar..or else later she alone sia..hmmm..sianz sia..send her to sch le den take cab go home slp le..reach home , daddy say i siao..coz of gf can dun wan my life..hahahaz..coz alot of things he dunno mahz..i may nt life long..my health condition nt gd..yes i admit i m stupid la..coz of a gal do til liddat , dunno how many ppl hav said me..i orange , dun care how ppl look at me , once i made up my mind to something , things cant be change de..all the things i done had its reason , hoping for patch wif demi bahz..hmmmm , dun say le la..i m very stressed out leee...

i m always reminded of the past la..
my heart wan mi to patch back wif u..
bt stil i think u are much more happier without me?
that time wad i had done should be the wrong choice le bahz
i shud juz disappear frm ur life
u lead ur happy life..
and mi leading my own dunno wad life
shud i gif up?
it took me quite a while to think
or i shud wait for ur ans?
if you see this , dun ever think i m expecting too much
actually i didnt expect much
i juz wan u to be happy
regardless of being wif mi or other guy
shud i again stop falling any deeper?
haix..
i m reali very stressed up lorx..
the song , hao xiang hao hao ai ni , the chorus part
reali can say how i m feeling..

I Don't Know Am I Doing The Right Thing.
But Should I Let You Go?
Its Not That I Don't Love You,
I Love You Just The Same..
I Kept On Having The Thoughts That You Will Be Much More Happier Than Now Without Me Around.
i am very sad
maybe thats the only way for me to go
i brought too much pain and suffering to her
she even cut her hand.
haix.
I COULD ONLY SECRETLY,SILENTLY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.
I COULDN'T CONTINUE TO BE WRONG FOREVER.
i'm sorry demi.

Yblackloves;
5:50 PM