.::_`_`_`~Orange Loves Her~Don't Leave Him~`_`_`_::.

2007-12-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged again.Well , things changed quite a lot.Now me and Demi is in a cold war state.Which is all my fault.Don't feel like mentioning about it again.All friendster's fault.Or should i say is my fault.I really don't have the mood to post a long post.Just a short one is enough.Nowadays monday to friday , working at Manda's mum office with one companion now.Ervin seah , the big head.With one more person in the office , i have lesser stress.With the help from ervin , my job is much simplier.I will be doing the website for now first.Which i have to rush out as soon as possible.And which yesterday , i went to cut my hair which is long and look lyk grass , so thick.Then after cutting , i rehighlight my hair.To dark purple for now.But then , the aunty told me soon i wash wash wash till the colour fade , it will become brighter and brighter purple.My hair now looks lyk black.I am waiting for it to turn the bright purple which is so obvious.I don't know long will i have to wait.But i hope soon i will see the outcome.I really can't wait.Today is the last day of our enjoying days i guess.I guess everyone will be working tomorrow onwards.Only me and ervin work from monday to friday , but then , the rest is either monday to saturday or monday to sunday.Sucks man working.I now have more better jobs offer.But then this job is the most relax and doing job at our own pace i guess.The rest have much higher pay , but not as good as mine now.Alright.I guess i will stop here.I am waiting for my hair to turn bright purple.Now my hair colour have purple ,orange , brown , black and red.Lots of colour ar?Okay , i shall stop here.Take care readers!!Bye..I am sad.

2007-11-23T13:03:00.000+08:00

It has been so long since i blogged.
Damn , i am getting so tired.
Everyone is asking me to update my blog , right?
Dear?ChingChing?Rika?
Well , i will blog more frequently i guess.
Because , i am in an office , working!!
But once there is lesser things for me to do , i will come to blog okay?
Actually , nothing much to blog too.Started work yesterday.
Its all doing adminitrative stuffs,yeah,it may be cool.But i am so bored , alone in an office.Wait till Manda's mum come bring things to work.Oh,nevermind.I may look as if i am the boss , working in an office in Unity Centre.
At bukit batok cresent.I saw all the office , everyone was older than me.And i look so weird , 16years old , gonna do this job.The only one with RED HAIR.! It may look weird , but its a relax job you see.I could come and blog , online MSN,friendster etc.Well , know why?Cause , i am working alone in a small office.And Manda's mum will be only here at around 3pm(around there)?Hopefully i won't get caught for those.As for the pay , not really that good.But the working days and time fits me quite well.I could say, i am tired.Every monday to friday , 9am-6pm , same work time as daddy.During friday night till sunday , i still could go find my friends to enjoy. Office work is simply more better compared to my last time job, Carl's Jr.

Alright , now you know whats the time?
1.17pm
Know what i am gonna do?
Go guess!!
*gumbles*
Know?
Save the guessing game , i shall tell you.
Its time for me to grab something to eat.
I AM HUNGRY!!
HAHA!!

I will blog some other days okay?
take care readers!
See ya all..

ohh.one thing before i go.
anyone knows what happened to my dear?
i don't know and don't have the time to figure out what happened.
someone please help me out?
she tends to be moody , bored , but claims to be tired
i know its all excuses
so , someone please help to cheer her up?
okay?
thanks alot for your help,whoever you are.
dear , cheer up.!

And now my chingching go for ATC camp , i have one lesser person to sms with.
I am bored.!
And chingching , once you come back , remember come office find me okay?

Bye everyone!

2007-10-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

Its a surprise for both Dear and Joey bah!!
hahahs , i told them i am busy studying ar.
bt in fact i didnt study wor.i m posting ar..
i m nt this type of people de la..say things nvr do de
surprise ba?
nope?
=(
hahahahs.
okay la..

Its been a very long and long long time since i blogged coz of some fuckers who spammed my blog ar.nvr mind ba , forget it.its all the life of being a useless pai kia lor.hmms , forget it.Well , there are lots of things that changed la in life.
hahahas.change phone,tatoos etc.
yupps , and now is o level studying period ar.
so i need not go sch anymore and i m free to slp as much as i wan
l0ls.i will confirm grow fat during this holiday.OMG!!
hahahs , doesnt matter , to everyone , i m a big slping pig
RIGHT MANDA?RIGHT DEAR?hahahhhas =)
doesnt matter , its a fact.

Alright la , lets tok abt today.
1.30pm liddat wake up(Considered early le)
then my phone gt 2 unread msg
one frm dear and one frm jh
still lacking of one la.MANDA!!!!
nvr msg mi in the morning
nvm , mi and jh was talking abt SOMETHING.
then ask dear got go out anot.bt in the end didnt.
nvm , then jh,mx ask mi go faisal hse de initially
bt in the end , they postponed it to friday
hahahs , doesnt matter lor..
stay at home watch anime whole day lorr.
bored to death ar..
watch 2 anime(s)
"THE LAW OF UEKI" & "SHUFFLE!"
l0ls.all is watch halfway de la..
hmmm , then till night time
which i had jus reach home nt long ago
went to clementi big bookshop brought a EXAMINATION GUIDE
i am gonna study!!!
hahahs..=x
try nia -_-
...
then after tt went to 1 head buy some doughnuts and bread home to eat
in case tonight gt tv show watch , can enjoy
hahahs..see how life is without sch , so nice..
hahahs =))
Today is liddat pass by de lor.bt tmr will be different liao bahz?
i hope so , today is so bored and i miss dear so much la..
i wanna hug her now so tightly la..
argh!!

I am preparing a surprise for Dear
but i wonder how long will it takes
i will try to get in done
and give a surprise to Dear.
Faster , and i am so excited. =))

TO DEAR,MANDA,JOEY AND More :
I am so sorry that i didnt post for so long liao
i dun hav the time mahs.
well , i will try to post as long i have the chance okay?

P.S : Dear , i promise u i will work hard for O's
But doesnt mean i will get gd results alright?
Okay la , enuf of studies , seeing my prelims results
is a big headache for me le..
Now i jus wanna accompany u as long as i can
I miss u so much , when can i ever hug u to slp?
DEAR, i love you
Take Care!

2007-08-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

Its been long since i blogged
coz of d&t work la.. no mood to blog la..
well , i was caught by HSA few days ago
I am in deep shit?

Monday Blues!!!!!
20 August 2007 , pass up d&t
good news is that i had spent 4 hrs doing d&t yesterday night
til 130 then went to bed
wake up morning 7am , my head is so heavy
but still dragged my feet to sch
School is so boring , lucky i had done my work for d&t
and so i dun hav to worry abt a single thing for it
i could relax and wait for the day to end
monday is always the most boring day
nth much to tok
i keep on wanna slp in class
bt no chance
lucky time flies real fast
gdgd
hmmm , finish sch at 215
then stayed back for d&t
went to canteen buy things up to studio to eat
then saw joey
talked to her abt some serious matter
hmmm , someone behind my back
talked bad abt my dear arr..
i relax so long le..ppl no longer respect me this orange le..
i guess i hav to do sth to make my name big again
because i hav dear by my side now , lots of things i had to think twice
before i could do it..with dear's permission
yes , i listen to my dear alot de
hmmm , bt sorry dear , somethings i reali cant bear it anymore
espcially that SOMEONE who is a childish freak
who take me as dead person
i reali can take it any further le
he take me as a sick cat , coz i didnt do anything to him
Hong and bully you , both he did it
but i could sit down and see , "REN"
one patience has its limit , i will burst out into anger
dear , u are around , everything i do , nid to think twice first
i dun mind abt anything happening to me , bt most importantly
u muz be fine
thats wad i m worrying abt , i m reali in a dilemma
i really dunno wad to do..
even joey is angry , i as your boyfriend
could i stand here do nth
i reali dun hav any patience le..
dear , if anything , i apologize first..
i dunno wad will happen to me
but i dun care le..
i wont let him carry on doing things tt he lyk le..
i will make sure my respect is earned back
269 orange..
i am being forced into it , dear , dun blame me..
sorry~

After d&t work , i took cab , went to dear's hse there
pick bee and dear up and head to my hse
they both stayed at my hse
and dear was being bullied by me
l0ls , dear , u know i am naughty
so , dun blame me k?
i love fooling around de mahz dear
especially wif you
=)
hmmmm , till 7 liddat
daddy fetch bee and dear home`

I FELT THAT I COULD NO LONGER CONTROL MYSELF
ANGER IS GONNA OVERTAKE ME SOON
I AM GONNA BURST OUT ANY MOMENT
I COULDNT HOLD ON TO MY ANGER FOR LONG
THIS IS THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME SO ANGRY
I PROMISED MYSELF I COULDNT LET DEAR SUFFER ANYTHING BAD
NOW , I FELT SO BAD
THAT SOMEONE IS ASKING FOR IT
BUT DEAR WUN ALLOW ME TO DO ANYTHING
I REALI DUNNO WAD TO DO
SOMEONE HELP ME!!!
I AM STUCK~

I promised dear to do the quiz , here goes:

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1) Eternal Love With Demi Lim Li Fen..=)
2) Peace Among Friends
3) Work and earn lots of money for dear~
4) O Level pass with flying colours
5) Laptop!

Answer the following questions :

1. The person who tag you is?
Demi Lim Li Fen Dear!~
2. Your relationship with him/her is?
She is my dear~~
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
Stupid , cute , pretty , lovable and smart..l0ls
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
L0ls , dunno~everything?
5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
"I Love Da`Ben`Dan`
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
She is my dear le la..-_-
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
She is perfect in her own ways , no need for improvement
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Jump Floor and die~
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Don't know , it wont happen =)
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Love her forever~
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Pretty plus a bit of stupidness~ =D
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
I Dont care abt how ppl judge me , i judge myself-
13. The character you love of yourself are?
Remaining cool~
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
dont know , i am nt born perfect and i dunno where are my weakness
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
The myself i am now

16. Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1. TimothyTan
2. TanJunHua
3. ChuaMingXiu
4. JonathanGwee
5. ErvinSeah
6. LimPeiSiang
7. PatrickTang
8. JustinTan
9. JonathanOng
10. AngWeiZhen

17. Who is no.6having relationship with?
l0ls,dun hav anyone la
18.Is no.9 a male or female?
fatty ar , male of course
19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Dont know and i dun care~
20.How about no.8 and 5 ?
both are guys
21.What is no.2 studying about?
o levels of course
22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ?
yesterday
23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
english pop?
24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
yes , a older bro and sis
25.Will you woo no.3?
i am attached , somemore its a guy , i m nt a gay
26.Is no.4 single ?
yes , with someone in mind i guess..hmmm
27.What's the surname of no.5 ?
Seah lor..
28.What's the hobby of no.4 ?
DotA siao!!
29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
yupps , for sure
30.Where is no.2 studying at?
Same school as me
31.Talk something casually about no.1 ?
he is a joker , my gd bro~
32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8 ?
he is a guy , i only hav one gal in my heart~
33.Where does no.9 live at?
Bukit Panjang
34.What color does no.4 like?
black and white?hahahz , i dunno la.~
35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
nope , they are nt very close
36.Does no.7 likes no.2 ?
i dunno , i dun care
38.Does no.1 have any pets?
hahaz , a pet rabbit , his girlfriend , pokpok
39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
i always call him fat de , hahhaz , how to be sexy?

The End Of The Quiz :DD

2007-08-13T22:06:00.003+08:00

Hmmm , long time no blog

since national day till now

everyday play mahz , dun wan blog , lazy

today blog is dear wan see my blog lorx..

aiyox.. , no choice then promise her lor

hahahhaz..

Today went back to school

after a so called "long break"

then started lesson wid maths
took back another paper , haix..

results were horrible

15.5/100

haix , confirm sad sia..

dear will scold me

nvr study

then followed by next lesson

MT , today take back O Level MT results

then wait till end of the day then take

take le also disappointing

worst in class

teacher say i everyday dont go school

haix..sad

somemore was made to promise Mdm Pee i will do well in the retake O Level MT exam

by Mrs Wan

Its so embarrassing

but i dont care bahz

then nxt lesson , eng

at least by eng paper was nt badly done

23/50

i still have hope to pass

teacher said to me that i had improvement

well , at least i m pleased

she ask me to cross my fingers , hoping i will pass my overall marks for eng language

which i dont have any confident to get

i hav to believe wad teacher said bahz

after eng lesson

recess , then after that is chemistry

hmmm , overall marks for combined science

33/100

another hopeless subject

HOW AM I GOING TO TAKE MY O LEVELS WITH THIS KIND OF RESULTS

i really dun feel lyk studying le la..

i m so stressed up

hmmm , after chemistry lesson

is social studies

we took back our papers le..

so going through thats all

after sch , go hall take my disappointing O LEVELS result

i dun wanna repeat typing my disgraceful results

after taking my result , was forced by Mr yong to go workshop

polish my d&t workpiece

followed by a lecture of better do well for my folio

i already dun hav the heart to study

somemore stressed up

20 Aug , deadline for my d&t

i stil gt abit more to go then finished my folio

mr yong kept on giving mi stress

i reali cnnt take it le..

haix..

after polishing , went home taking cab

dear , jialiang , jess went to my hse

kim , joey , bee came my hse downstairs afterwards

hmmm , then we went to Jurong entertainment

hmmm , suppose to Initial-D , but too many ppl

too bad

dear they all took neoprints lorx..

very rich hor dear

aiyoyo..
after all neoprints are done , dear they all took some photos

below are some of the photos taken

Me and joey

i hav to bend down to be same height as her

This is dear take de..(Top)Our Nice pic , i simply love this..(Below)

There are still more photos , including , jessical , joey , celestene and most importantly dear

hahahahz , lazy to load le..

am i reali very bad?!

hahahahz , shhhhh , i m nt

hahahaz..ehhh , after all those fun

its nearly 7 le..

kim's probation , we went to eat at long john

then after eating , some things happened

i dun wanna tok abt it

hmmm , then after that , all went home le lorx..

MRT back home

then me, dear and bee took 945 a round to pei kim back

well , then send dear home

cabbed home!!

To Jialiang And Jess :

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary

Last long long , don't always think too much!

To Kimweng :

Enjoyed Everything?!Go ahead and jio Joey!

I will help you and support you..

Tomorrow is 14 Aug , Don't worry!Nothing will happen to you

Brothers!!

Take Care!

To DA`SHA`GUA Dear! :

I LOVE YOU~~!

Take good care of yourself okay?

Don't worry too much about my studies k?

You have a good future ahead of you

Unlike me , please , study hard

Don't be a failure in everything like me

Do anything , won't succeed

Alright , take care dear

I will always stay by you side

DA`BEN`DAN&DA`SHA`GUA!!!!

2007-08-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY,SINGAPORE~
`POWER RANGER WISH SINGAPORE HAPPY NATIONAL DAY~
l0ls..

Morning waked up by dear's msg at dunno wad time~
then nvm , go back slp again
slp til she wake me up again
dear also funny ar
l0ls.
so tired sia..dunno why
nt enuf slp , i this pic nid alot of sleep de
nvm , can go out wif dear can le`

Going west mall meet dear they all
at around 12 plus
daddy fetch me there , rushing le
went to cinema , want watch "Secret" the movie
then wait for jessical&charmaine they all come west mall frm cck
then go in watch the show
must understand the story line
then can understand how touching is the movie
overall i could say its good~
dear inside movie keep on laughingg`~
sot de nehh~
hahahhahz~

After the movie , arnd 2 plus
bee ask us go csc
then we all walk to csc lorxx..
hahahz , on the way
we all take out flags and bee spoilt flag
l0ls..mi kimweng and bee confirm are crazy manz
then we faster run to csc
l0ls..
kimweng they all played pool
then after that i go play initial-d
initial-d madness muz be stopped so that i could save more money
i rather spend de money on dear than on a stupid machine
hahahahz , dear wil say : "u confirm siao"
=D

After everything , went to west mall again
l0ls..
jessical,kimweng and charmaine went home
then left wif me , dear and liangliang
we all went to E-ZONE arcade
coz i still got 2 tokens left the other time
then this time i went to spend it
after playing , went to send dear home..
then took a cab back home..

Dear went out to buy food
then liang liang and me went to go find her
ride bike to west mall mac
was speeding till when we reached mac
we were full of sweat
hahahz..doesnt matter
can pei dear , nth else matter
lucky dear can come out , i can see her
coz i miss her arrrr~
l0lss..
dear went kopitiam to eat
then after that liangliang ride dear back to her hse playground
dear was so scared arr..l0ls..
no worries , anything happen
liang liang confirm die
hahahhahaz
too bad my bike cant ride ppl , coz dangerous
then ask liang liang ride
bo bian~sadd
wanted a nice bike
IMPOSSIBLE i guess
wanna buy also have to use my own money
hmmm , then slack at dear's hse nearby
slack awhile den dear went home le..
then ride home lorx..
liangliang speeding
then i almost kena bang by car arr
lucky i smart brake abit first
he saw car coming also nvr warn de
or else i wun be here blogging le..
laying at hospital le arr~
hahahz
then we at liangliang hse area , coz mi and him go different way le..
we sing AST poem
hahahhaz , sing til we go off
hahahz..
thats all for de day le lorx..
reach home , watch tv liddat nia~

Oh ya , 14Aug , i hope he can go through it peacefully
nth will happen to him~
YOU WILL BE FINE~

HAPPY 01 MONTH DEARRR~
I LOVE YOU

2007-08-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today waked up at 7am as usual , go school
daddy brought me to school..
reached school at 7.30am
hmmmm , didnt saw dear mahz
then thought she didnt come sch
haha
then nvm lehh
today national day performance
see they carry the singapore flag
reminds me of last year national day
i am also involved in it.

After finishing the parade at the parade square
we went up to hall for a concert
well , its nice
everyone was in red
AST!!
hahahz..
no la..national day
sang all those song , some are nice
some juz sux
singapura song!!
i love it..
and one more , hanif's performance!!!
his performance is juz so nice
GO GO POWER RANGER!!
nice remix he got man!
then till the end , MR adam was invited
to go to the stage and sing along wif students
dear said he was so cute
l0ls..shud i say act cute?!
nahz , i dun be so bad..
mr adam is reali a joker ar

Finish sch at 10
then wait for dear at canteen
dear tok tok to her daughters
then went off to 289 resident corner
find jialiang , dear's another son
hahahahz..
walking at front gate , saw d&t teacher
quickly run off to find jialiang they all at resident corner
coz i ran away from d&t remedials alot of times
and when mryong wan see mi , i confirm nt there de
=)
how gd m i dear?
hahahz..

After staying at resident corner till arnd 12 plus
dear wanted to go home bathe and change then come out
then together mercedes cab back to 203
then me and jialiang wait at 21 floor for dear
l0ls..21 , we at there blast gang poem
hahahaz..confirm paikia sia..
BHB//
hahahz..
wait til dear they all come down le , daddy come fetch mi jialiang and dear
back to my hse
my turn to bathe and change le..
hahahaz..relax relax
til 3 liddat
cab go entertainment watch movie
881
buay buay you ar you ar you
hahahahz..881
its a very stupid show
but its interesting
and i am stuck in my POWER RANGER world
today i am mad , dear also say
GO GO,POWER RANGER!!
lame shit right?
i know i am lame , but at least POWER RANGER
makes mi felt i am once again young
hahaz..

Finish show le..took mrt back home
same as normal , send dear home first
then go home myself
a habit le..
hahahaz..dear pei me awhile at the playground downstairs her hse
sit there joke and li siao each other till she is suppose to be home..
dear nt everytime can pei mi late late de
muz grab every single seconds..
or else after that i am gonna miss her again
hahahahz..

TO DEAR:I LOVE YOU TOO..<3 TAKE GD CARE OF UR HEALTH
COUGHING FOR SO MANY MONTHS
VERY WORRIED ABOUT U..
DRINK MORE WATER K?
I MISS YOU LA DEAR~~~
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAZ~

TO AMANDACHING: XIAOKEAI`UR MUMMY AND UR PIG
BOTH ASK ME TO CHEER U UP
PLS CHEER UP BAHZ
I SPENT SO MUCH TIME COUNSELLING U
TAKE MY WORDS TO HEART
TAKE CARE BA
WISH U ALL THE BEST =)

2007-08-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

Very sianz sia today.Took back 3 test paper , maths , social studies and physic..let mi tell everyone PROUDLY about my marks..wanna know?!~*WAIT LONG LONG*
l0ls , no la..joking la..
start with maths:
paper 2 : 30.5/80

social studies:
whole paper : 17/50

physic
paper 1 MCQ : 16/40
paper 2&5 : 27/80

haix.See my results , really no hope for my studies , i really dun know wad else to say to myself
upon seeing my results , i felt really bad.
i cant see my future ahead
i can only see a dead end
is it too late to study now??
everyone said its nvr too late to repent , i felt that its too late
i somemore dont hav the heart to study anymore
all my heart is concentrated on someone
someone very important and dear to me
`that person is no other than my girlfriend
hahax
after posting this blog , dear will confirm come here tag my blog say i stupid
i admit i am stupid
but my stupidness is because i love you~

Because i love you that makes me a stupid guy
but it isnt the worst thing
but the opposite
its a good thing
a stupid guy that can get your love..
i am more than happy and willingly to be your stupid guy..

050807 will be the day
i will never forget in my life
i promised`

Stupid sotong , you said you love me
and i dont believe izzit?
haha , dun foolish la..
i wun doubt your love for me
just wanted to make sure there is no one else in ur heart
if i gif u any wrong idea , i m sorry k?
i dont meant anything~

Anyway,one last thingg~~

THANKS FOR DRAWING MY NAME AND EVERYTHING ON IT..
I SERIOUSLY VERY HAPPY LE..
THANKS DEAR~
MOST IMPORTANTLY,I LOVE YOU~
take care..
I HATE~~~~~~~~~

2007-08-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

Haixxx..boredd..today afternoon 2 plus wake up le..haix..today very boring la..nvr go out , whole day at home sleep and play computer nia..liddat wait wait wait for time to fly lorx..actually wan go out play pool with timothy at night de , bt then i fell asleep so forget it le lorx..always liddat de la..lay on bed awhile then confirm fall asleep , pig jiu shi pig la..wad to do..haixx..today jiu shi liddat so sianz sia..

WHY IZZIT LIKE EVERYONE BESIDE ME ARE BACKSTABBERS?
I JUST WANT TO SETTLE DOWN AND RELAX MY LIFE LE..
THAT SEEMS TO BE IMPOSSIBLE
I AM LIVING IN A COMPLICATED WORLD..

i juz wan to love you with the whole of my heart
with no one disturbing&INTERFERING
pls , dun do this to me..
no one can overtake her in my heart~

2007-08-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

Ytd night went out at 10pm , timothy is waiting for me downstairs my hse.i took my time go down lorx..boring sia..no mood sia ytd..thats why went out so late.always liddat de la..lucky timothy can accompany me sia..or else i dunno whre to go le.haix.dunno la..then together we walk to pok's block there the bus stop take 985 go timah play pool lorx..we went to CENTURY to play , which requires a 16 yr old person to book the table , then tim 16 le he book lorx.Then we started the pool with 9 balls.I no mood concentrade on the game sia.then anyhow aim anyhow shoot lorx..end up stil i win , anyhow de la..then play pool , i very sianz sia..then hit the ball very hard ar..then the ball keep on anyhow fly.pek chek sia..play play play til me and him dun wan play le , then we pay le den go off..$4 only , cheap sia..*how nice it is to be 16* mine is stil long long way behind la..after O's..LONG SIAAA!!! kekex..hmmm , after pool , we went to play LAN la..dota lorx..sianz sia..i m a noob , haix..play battle.net always ppl kp de..du lan la..haix..then play finish LAN then go eat then separate cab go home slp le..

Till today afternoon arnd 2 plus then wake up sia..haixyo , i am a pig , a pig who only laze around and do nothing , love to enjoy only..wake up le ppl call mi out go play pool again , later i going play pool at timah til arnd 7 plus near 8 bahz..wanna send demi home , she is in sch , having the lame innovative thingy..then mayb go tim's hse..we sec 4 are advised to go , but do i look as if i cared?hmmm , alright la..i hav to blog faster coz i m going out le..my fren are all waiting for me at timah le..i wanna go play pool , hmmmm..today is only liddat only la..updates on tmr~

she read my blog again , hmmm , i m feeling very miserable
coz i apologize first in case i made up my mind
then do things that may hurt u
haix..i reali very stress and confused la..
i dunno wad else shud i do le..
maybe in the first place , i shudnt belong to her world
i can only live inside my own world , alone
leading lonely life , and thats the end
coz her world is much more simple , unlike mine , COMPLICATED!
i am reali afraid to hurt her once more
and that wil cause mi heartaches
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WAD SHUD I DO NOW?!!
I REALI FEEL VERY MISERABLE NOW!
GUESS NO ONE BOTHERS
haixx..
life is liddat , wad goes around , comes around
i had done too much bad things in the past
now its coming back to me
maybe my frenz are all right about me
I HATE MYSELF

I AM THINKING WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW
TO LEAVE OR TO CONTINUE?
guess i should juz leave liddat
its a heartless decision
i am stil thinking
if i were to do it , i could only say
SORRY,I LOVE YOU..

2007-08-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

Since i ytd nvr blog..i shall start blogging frm ytd bahz..ytd slp til arnd 1pm..coz my exam is at 2 til 3pm..gd ar?dun hav to go sch so early..prelim exam last paper , chem/phy paper 1 , 40 MCQ qns..hahahhaz..l0ls..after paper , then went home la..den go home bathe then change le quickly rush out to go find demi and bee at 205..sit down there tok tok tok , den bee ask us go west mall walk..hmmm , sianz sia..nth to do de west mall..walk lai walk qu dou shi de same place..hmmmm , den walk til demi wan go home le..i send her home lorx..left wif bee and mi..we two also very sianz.den call ppl , den i go mit pei siang , ming xiu and jon go panjang accompany pei siang go cut his hair..his hair cut le and nvr cut also no difference..such a waste of money.den cut finish hair le.go junhua hse there find him den go back batok find shenghui take chiong de cig frm him lorx..l0ls..take le pei siang go his another fren hse then we go eric's hse ton lorx..take 188 go..reach his hse , first thing is to smoke!we hav 52 sticks of cigg..nice arr?hahahaz..den all play comp , some watch movie then me and eric very sianz..go make dominoes , hahahz..bt i make make horr.my hand shaking..make til du lan nvr success then dun wan do le..we all 11plus go down play soccer and basketball , play til we all wan die le lorxx..so tired and body full of sweat..come back i change to eric's shirt and pants..whole night nvr slp lorx..play fighting , see who fall first..all aim me..du lan la..den they all go down buy things come up eat..eat til so full sia..i very bored lehh , den eric gt things teach mi to do..make a owl for demi..bt it doesnt look lyk owl , it took mi whole night juz to do a small owl..bt nvm , as long demi liked it..i dun mind nvr slp the whole night..

Tok abt today le..til morning 5 plus i almost completed the owl..they all ask mi go sentosa..bt i very tired le..then demi waked up le..she msg mi..i wan send her to sch , then she initially dun wan de lorx..til i say say then okay de..i 630 liddat reach her hse below..joey nvr go mit her go sch , lucky gt mi accompany her to sch ar..or else later she alone sia..hmmm..sianz sia..send her to sch le den take cab go home slp le..reach home , daddy say i siao..coz of gf can dun wan my life..hahahaz..coz alot of things he dunno mahz..i may nt life long..my health condition nt gd..yes i admit i m stupid la..coz of a gal do til liddat , dunno how many ppl hav said me..i orange , dun care how ppl look at me , once i made up my mind to something , things cant be change de..all the things i done had its reason , hoping for patch wif demi bahz..hmmmm , dun say le la..i m very stressed out leee...

i m always reminded of the past la..
my heart wan mi to patch back wif u..
bt stil i think u are much more happier without me?
that time wad i had done should be the wrong choice le bahz
i shud juz disappear frm ur life
u lead ur happy life..
and mi leading my own dunno wad life
shud i gif up?
it took me quite a while to think
or i shud wait for ur ans?
if you see this , dun ever think i m expecting too much
actually i didnt expect much
i juz wan u to be happy
regardless of being wif mi or other guy
shud i again stop falling any deeper?
haix..
i m reali very stressed up lorx..
the song , hao xiang hao hao ai ni , the chorus part
reali can say how i m feeling..

I Don't Know Am I Doing The Right Thing.
But Should I Let You Go?
Its Not That I Don't Love You,
I Love You Just The Same..
I Kept On Having The Thoughts That You Will Be Much More Happier Than Now Without Me Around.
i am very sad
maybe thats the only way for me to go
i brought too much pain and suffering to her
she even cut her hand.
haix.
I COULD ONLY SECRETLY,SILENTLY LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.
I COULDN'T CONTINUE TO BE WRONG FOREVER.
i'm sorry demi.

2007-07-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

aiyox.sux la today.31july.maths paper 2!!
seriously lorx..2h30mins sit at hall
the paper so difficult..also dunno how to do
anyhow hack de la..my p1 also no hope
p2 slightly better bt stil no hope de la..
nvr think so much also la..
i m very stressed this few days le la..
PRELIM sux la!!big time
i hate having exams , i rather stay at home slp
i also dun wan to study le la..
go outside chiong le better
die le also better
alot of things hiding inside my heart
i dun know how to say out..somehow
i feel lyk speaking my hearts out
but forget it la..
all i can say is the life i m leading
isnt the life i wanted
stress,headache,no freedom
everything also lyk against mi
dunno le la..
i reali dun hav mood for anything sia
PRELIM is giving mi too much stress la
i now also know wad kind of result
i wil be having le..
then take back result hav to kena scolded again
sux la..
i reali dun feel lyk living le la..
somehow i know why ppl choose nt to live
coz of stress,ppl arnd..
aiyaa..fcuk la.
dun wan say so much le..

hmmmm , today last day of my anti-biotic
for my eye de
hmmm , finally , tts why today whole day
slping sia..
haix..the medicine reali sux la..
make mi so tired and slpy
somemore it makes mi sianz sianz de
worst
thats why i dun feel gd this few days
aiyox..whole day at home
bee ask mi go out..i tired
haix..
dunno le la..this few days reali pig
slp alot sia..
wan go out also no time le..
after this week jiu no more le..
i wan faster fri!!
i wan go enjoy
forget everything!!
i reali hate de way i m living
haix..
blame no one bt myself bahz..
i also dun wan hurt her anymore
bt i stil love her sia..
i hate myselff!

tmr 750-905 chem p3
another no hope paper
1hr15mins is a waste of my time
sitting at hall
thats nt de main thing
after 905 is a break for us
905-1000..
then 1000-1230 is dnt paper
haix..
tmr gt 2 paper..i reali wil high la..
confirm siao de lorx..
i confirm cant concentrade de lorx..
dnt paper , long lehh
2h30mins like today
sit til butt pain and numb ar
tmr a long day for mi
705-1230
haix..isnt it lyk sch day?
argh!!
can i dun go for PRELIM
can i dun study
can i leave this world?
can i hav peaceful mind
can i always be happy
can i enjoy myself
can i?!

all those things , the answer is obvious
NO..
haix..
simply life sux
if i were to have a chance to live or die
i rather i die inside my mum's womb
so i dun hav to go through so many obstacles
and be someone whom no one likes

sometimes i wonder
shud i blame God or love God
that He brings mi into this world
full of sufferings
full of hate
full of pain
full of EVERYTHING
gd or bad also havv

IF I HAVE A CHOICE,I WOULDN'T HURT ANYONE IN THIS WORLD
especially u..
u know who u are..

2007-07-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm , finally done with my blog..phew..took me the whole day to do it and i am stil on medication.yet i stil face the comp whole day.nt really whole day la.i shall start my first posting on today.hmmm , today morning 905 finish sch le..the phy paper is so difficult lorx..i can say is dunno how to do any of the qns.well~my prelims are a sure fail de la.some things are bothering me too much.and i seriously cant concentrade well on my studies.not hiding anything , during a period of time i gt think of nt studying anymore.my most important thing in life is no longer wid me.why shud i study so hard for?i dun hav a future , i dun know how long will i live looking at my health conditions.i reali dun plan far.i dun mind dying as long as my "something important" is happy and i can leave peacefully.some things reali let go den can achieve happiness.i dun wan tok so much abt studies.it juz make mi bored and pissed.well , after tt , bee and demi went over to my hse at arnd 1 plus near 2..actually suppose to go NUH and see jo en de..HOSPITALISED!hmmm..take care jo en(zi bi zhen gal)..hmmm , they all at my hse..bee playing dota and demi keep on li siao mi when i wan slp..bt nvm la..at least she can entertain mi..gdgd..hmmm , play til 5 plus demi go off le..bee arnd 7 liddat den go off..hmmm , say abt demi horr..stupid lehh , she is de most 'stupidest' gal lorx..reali cant say how stupid she is lorx..stupid stupid stupid sotong..
reali very stupid la..cant tahan her..
dun be stupid anymore!!
i see her liddat , dunno my heart break into how many millions of pieces
reali heartache sia..
its torturing mee..
i gt nth else to say abt her le la..
only know my heart hav someone..which is far away frm sky,right in front of me..

2007-07-30T12:55:00.000+08:00

today suddenly very boring lehh..then think of making blog lorx..then now come make a blog..my old de blog forget all the passwords and id le..so make new de..very sianz mahz..aiyox..i now stil doing my blog sia..do til very du lan le..hahaz..cant find nice de skins for my blog.reali long time nvr come do blog le hor..everything forget le..thats why do things so slow..aiya..next time then post la..pek chek..hahahz..

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